1/24/2020

We both had a single alcohol drink. I had one alcoholic drink and I was feel very buzzed.

I had a feeling that you had jerked off to your experience with this new Zachary person you were talking to.

I asked if you had came, and you said yes.

I was quiet. You said that you felt like I was disappointed.

I told you that I was disappointed because I wanted to share that experience with you. It was a "first" experience and I cannot experience that again.

The conversation changed to our sex life for some reason. You said, "you want me to have sex with this?"

I stated, "I don't know how we got to this topic anyway"

You said, "you're the one that brought it up."

I did not recall bringing it up. Maybe I did and I drank too much that I couldn't remember."

Proceed to when we got home. You said that you wanted to have sex with a "man", and I'm acting like a child. 

You left for the bedroom.

I went to try to comfort you. 

You said that you felt like no one sticks up for your decisions, so you feel like you have to. I tell you that you did nothing wrong and you shouldn't feel bad.

You said "I've heard this before."

You left for the couch.

I went to the computer.

You left for the bedroom and closed the door behind you.